“Love is a striking example
of how little reality means to us.”
-Marcel Proust
*Note- Endless;
book: Analog by Rajula Shah from 'KEYwording' series by Madhushree Dutta and Ines Schaber.
Keenly aware of the various processes occurring and recurring at the shore where the screen persists, the two-dimensional press on the faculty of touch of the 21st century global citizen. The usage of the word ‘global’ is a ‘double bind’, to be immersed in the affairs of the world one must lose access to the immediate reality that enwraps, twists and folds.
double bind- a psychological predicament in which a person receives from a single source conflicting messages that allow no appropriate response to be made.
Documenting of hunger and thirst is not possible only because it seems unnecessary the second it is quenched. The senses radiate in a pool of ephemeral, infinitely.
As ‘global’ products promise to provide local solutions, the action and words sit on asymptotic paths, driven with sentiment and reaction, the word ‘touch’ has come to mean something negatively personal. It has divorced itself from poetry and folds to become an identity marker, a necessary faculty to enter the detached, ‘perceived global’ on a 2D screen. This hands us a second-hand life.
A second-hand life is a synthesis of reality-woven beings (us) trying to find difference with reality, as lightning does from thunder; Earth's crust does from the core- separating itself from where it has occurred into being. The trained mind withers in mute, endless pain to find formless engulfing most of it despite all the education. The stomach acid may regurgitate, the fingernails, the hair, the belly - every impotent, limp part of the human body when allowed to grow, grows endlessly; very unlike the mechanism of the phallus on which much of the structures are predicated: the infinite is within and without, but it is not us.
“The general future of mankind has nothing to offer to individual life, whose only certain future is death.”
-Hannah Arendt
The individual stands in between two infinite flows of time, as Hannah Arendt notes in Between Past and Future.
This existing is much more than a direct interaction with reality, which is action based. The thought-machines spur, spin and collide with various joints, folds and materials to invent a small fragment in line with schizo-legacies. As the Western canon splits into various lines, as unused information is unearthed by a consciously aware thought-machine, the legacies have become ‘double bind’. In a post colonial era where every information be treated as diabolical, every aspect examined: no examination seems to be taking place.
Every Deleuzean flow that consists of pauses and rushes seems to have both the pause and the rush simultaneously. The drive to do and the tendency to contemplate, when both collide as two tectonic plates- what may the synthesis be?
New continents come to existence. A volcano or several, may erupt. The lava mixes with ocean water. All of this occurring as on Earth’s crust- on the surface of the thought-machine’s mind.
Greek | (But isn’t desire always the same, whether the object is present or absent? Isn’t the object always absent?-- this isn’t the same languor: there are two words: Pothos, desire for the absent being, and Himeros, the more burning desire for the present being)
-Roland Barthes
The disconnect accelerates as the connections go deeper. A partner tends to cheat to fill this maddening difference between self and the romantic partner: “Why can’t I get closer, as close as I wish?” A different being (absent) gives the feeling of filling up that difference between self and lover, but there another difference is created. This gap will always exist and cannot be filled in by another person or another desire. That difference is where self finds mirror image. And has reactions to it. The aloneness in that reflection despite having a lover is overwhelming. It is the closed image of lover playing out, a lover conceals in itself what the seer wants it to conceal; an openness is missing from subject and object alike.
In post colonial, languages separate themselves from the origin. While the origin reveals what cannot be replaced by fragmentation, the assemblages reveal what in turn, origin cannot.
The mud lines on a sculpture are revealed only when the light falls sideways, the top-down light seldom unearths the gaps and realistic stickers that bring one back from imagination to reality- this movement between imagination and reality contorts in the light thrown at it- or the lack of light itself.
A moratorium transforms movement into stillness.
The knowledge of Greek and Latin when understanding English may be imperative; knowing Hindi, English and familiarity with bits of regional, colloquial languages is non-imperative; a condition of post-colonial where the Tamil population cannot read or write their language, just speak it; where Hindi populations cannot weed out ideology from the ‘source’ texts and Sanskrit language.
When the potter demands the mud to adjust to their sense-imagination; the mud does not submit without respect to its own form.
In submission exists a folding of material and spaces…
Language is a skin: I rub my language against the other. It is as if I had words instead of fingers, or fingers at the tip of my words. My language trembles with desire. The emotion derives from a double contact: on the one hand, a whole activity of discourse discreetly, indirectly focuses upon a single signified, which is “I desire you,” and releases, nourishes, ramifles it to the point of explosion (language experiences orgasm upon touching itself); on the other hand, I enwrap the other in my words, I caress, brush against, talk up this contact, I extend myself to make the commentary to which I submit the relation endure.
Ronald Barthes
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